State of Mind

It's hard not to worry. But it's easy to let a good feeling ride its course. I have no bad feelings about this. I am pretty confident that my new low key undemanding attitude is going to turn some heads. Or at least one. The only head I want to turn is his. As much as I would love to credit myself to this new found relaxed mode, it's not all me. I like the waiting. I like the anticipation building of not talking until we are close enough to touch one another. It is genuinely intoxicating. I really really like the idea of that. I am not just some girl who it's easy to text and say.. Hey, wanna come over? I am a pretty girl, who deserves the "in person ask out". So worrying is just a plain waste of energy knowing that. Why worry about a good thing?

Girls do silly things. Like get all emotional over nothing. What if there was a way to turn that off? Still no word from Jake, I want to let it drive me crazy. But I won't. There is something empowering about not caring. I have this sense of sexiness radiating around me. To call or text him and get all freaking emotional about it would be throwing that feeling out of the window. If he doesn't see me tonight.. He is the one missing out. I look pretty damn cute tonight. ;)