Oh just stop it already.

So, I was talking to my grandmother tonight. Who pretty much flat out told me I am being ridiculous and dramatic. Um. Thanks Grandma. I was filling her in on everything. She of course asked about date night, and I told her everything. I believe my last sentence was - "I mean, we are doomed - you can't fall in - and out- and back into love in a year that is obnoxious. So, I'm just waiting for him to call me and say - I'm sorry - but it's over." This resulted in "Oh just stop it already - you are being ridiculous and dramatic. You're dating a goodlooking older guy who really likes you - just go with it."

Um, right? I think I may be setting up some sort of defense mechanisms to protect myself. By not getting overly excited or feeling super in love - I won't get as disappointed. But that doesn't always work - and it kind of kills the mood when I do see him. I'm not as eager or open to him. Am I ever going to just be able to go with it? Or am I going to be torturing myself?

Grandma has a point. I guess I need to learn how to do this whole "going with it thing".