Nerous.

So, I think the fact that I talk to much about things to other people really screws up my judgement. I haven't said a thing to anyone in the last 4 days besides Callie calming me down for a few when Jake cancelled on me Thursday.

I think it helps to keep the talking to a minimum. I think about it less, and then when I type it out or run it out, I think a little more clearly about everything. I don't jump to as many crazy conclusions. Pretty much everything my instincts have guessed at has been right. I think I really do need to take a couple pages out of Jake's little book. Maybe he needs to learn how to decompartmentalize a little and I need to learn how to compartmentalize a little. I don't know if that is a girl capable quality though. so we shall find out.