Just Right.

So, my new apartment is set up - almost. I still have a table to put together. But that is the last thing pretty much... Besides MASSIVE amounts of laundry and a few necessities to buy. I love it though. It is perfect.

Speaking of perfect... Jake and I had the most amazing night/day. We spent the most time we have ever spent together. It was great - it was more than great. He came over a little late for dinner/dessert. I made homemade pizza/peach cobbler. As soon as we were done eating, we poured some wine and relaxed together on the couch - reading Cosmo. It was so relaxing and just felt SO good. We slept almost all day. Getting up to read, kiss, stretch or talk. It was the best. It's what I have been wanting so badly - and it just happened organically. No pressure, no pushing, no begging or trying to arrange it. It just happened. We finally got up and got going. We went to lunch/dinner and he helped me put some chairs together then left. It was great really.

All the fear I have had before has melted away. Organic. That's just it. This is growing. He likes it. I like it. And it is important that I relax and not think too much about it. He's giving me what he has got right now, and that is quite alright with me. I need the space too, and he knows that. I am growing and loving who I am becoming. Not seeing him all the time or hearing from him all the time - yet knowing I can call/text if I want - is good. I can keep my relationships with my girlfriends, work out, and do my own stuff. Which is just right.